Releasing the Goddess Energy

This morning’s meditation showed me once again that we will experience what we need to experience, no matter where we think we are on our spiritual path, and no matter what we may expect. Although this experience is quite personal, I’m writing about it because I know there are many people, especially women, who have gone through similar, and may be helped by my experience.

I was once again confronted with the pain and problems of my teenage years. I dealt with and healed myself years ago of the abuse – of all kinds – which I had suffered, and wondered why I was again confronted with it. However, there was no emotion attached to revisiting it this time and Spirit told me that it was necessary because I needed to realise how this abuse had injured my feminine side. I was shown many instances where it was always my feminine, loving side that was abused, and how my masculine side had tried to protect me, even though I was too young to have any defence against the abuse. What had happened in the end was that my feminine, loving side was so deeply injured that it totally retreated inside of me because it couldn’t cope with the emotional abuse, leaving my masculine, protective/defensive side to take over.

Spirit showed me that my body still held much of the pain this had caused me and said it was time to remove it. I was shown that most of it was attached to my feminine parts and could just be pulled out. I was surprised how easy it was to do this, as it came away without any problem or emotional attachment and caused me no anguish at all. I was then told that I could now release the goddess in myself – my own goddess energy. By connecting to my feminine energy, I felt a happiness that was overwhelming and I set the goddess in me free. She rose up laughing and filled me with such Love and happiness, that I felt utterly euphoric. She has a beautiful pink energy, which was soon surrounded and protected by my (blue) masculine energy, which is her balance.

Over the years, through the inner healing work I’ve done during my spiritual journey and the achievement of the Rainbow Bridge, I have helped and allowed my feminine side to surface fully again, which is why it was so easy to remove the residue of pain in my body. I have come to realise that my feminine side, which I used to see as weak because it was vulnerable, is in fact the side that is the strongest, and I now approach everything that happens in my life from a balanced centre of love and trust. This means taking full responsibility for my feelings and actions. If I get hurt emotionally, it is not someone else’s fault. It is because I have allowed my feelings to rule me, which means I have allowed an imbalance to occur inside. The other person has only reflected it back to me. This then becomes another lesson to be used for growth.

It also helps to expose yourself exactly as you are, as I’ve done in my book The Mystery of Self, so you no longer have any secrets. This way there is no need to be anything but yourself, as everyone knows who you are, which allows you to become a fully authentic person. It turns all your vulnerabilities into strengths, because you take full responsibility for who you are and accept yourself totally. By allowing myself to become a complete person – balanced in both feminine and masculine energy – I have not only become whole mentally, emotionally and spiritually, but now also physically. My goddess energy is now fully available again, which means that my intuitive, loving side is fully activated. It helps me to BE the Powerful Being of Light that I AM.

Coming Home to ALL

Whilst meditating a few days ago, I asked Spirit what these past nine years since the Rainbow Bridge have really been about. I was taken back to the bottom of the stairs, to the place where I’d found the fertile ground, shortly before I reached the Rainbow Bridge. I had planted some seeds which, unbeknown to me at the time, turned out to be what was needed to ignite the ‘Three-fold Flame’. That day, coming back to this place, I found the three beautiful trees that had grown from these seeds, which I had seen before. (see my post Kundalini and a Crystalline Body of Light) This time however, I saw the trees slowly twist together and become one large tree, which grew and grew, going up my spine, continuing until its crown reached my crown chakra, and its fruits were growing in the Light of my heart chakra. Suddenly, I felt my heart chakra expand, and with a roaring sound and a brilliant flash of Light,  a beam of brilliant white light shot out of the top of my head. With it came an overwhelming feeling of Love, Joy, complete Peace and connection. Spirit embraced me and told me that these past nine years had been about growth and completion, and that I had now fully completed the cycle.

In another meditation yesterday, I found myself going upwards in the beam of Light from my crown. I entered the Light, feeling blissful and Loved. Continuing upwards, I had a sense of creation and swirling movement, in the way that everything came from the centre (heart) of this plane and moved outwards in ever increasing circles, like a swirling galaxy. Moving higher, I had a feeling of ever greater refinement, of greater perfection than I had experienced on the lower planes. As I carried on upwards, there was a sense of complete Joy and Unity – it felt as if I was joined by many others, or perhaps other parts of me. It felt like I became We, and We not only moved upwards, but in every direction at once. We expanded into and became the Universe. As this expansion of consciousness became more and more profound, We arrived on a plane where the Light became a rainbow of different colours, where We joined with the Elohim. This was Home, and the feeling of Love and welcome was overwhelming. Together, we expanded into such complete Joy, such Ecstasy, that it’s impossible to describe. Soon after, there was a sense of joining with and of BEING ALL. This was a feeling of such Completeness, such Wholeness, that there are no words for it – it can only be experienced. I heard Spirit’s voice tell me that this was the 12^th dimension and that this was the energy that I was to embody in my physical vessel. Then I felt myself returning to my body and my meditation finished.

When I came around, I realised that my face was wet with tears. Although I had not been aware of my body at all during this Homecoming, I had been so overwhelmed with the Love, Joy and Completeness I had experienced, that my body had expressed these profound emotions with tears of pure Joy.

A state of absolute Bliss

Since last Sunday, the 21^st, I have perceived a big change in the energies. It feels different – I feel different – and I know there’s been another step-up in energy frequency.  When meditating, I’ve had the urge to connect not only with humanity as a whole, but with the dolphins and whales, the animals, the trees – every single life-form that Gaia supports – and the rocks, the ocean, the wind, the very essence of Gaia Herself. I have a sense of everything coming together – a Light-connection of all parts of creation.

I have also been prompted to connect with and bring in the energies of the higher dimensional parts of my Self. The other day in meditation, I reached somewhere I haven’t been before, where the Light was extremely bright and I was ‘showered’ with a rainbow of different colours of Light. I’ve had a sense of using these different coloured rays to ‘spin a web’ that connects everything, as if I’m re-connecting myself with everything and becoming part of the Whole again – or perhaps making a closer connection with the Whole. I’ve known for a long time that I’m a part of ALL of course, but it feels like I’m ‘making it real’ somehow. I also have the feeling that somehow, I’m not in the same place in the Whole where I used to be. It’s as if I’ve somehow ‘moved closer’.

Over the years, I’ve taken a close look at every part of myself that I could reach. I have broken through barriers, dug deep inside and thrown out what I didn’t want. I’ve brought many different abilities up from my subconscious into consciousness, which I’ve developed and worked with. I have the feeling however, that a new door has been opening recently, into yet other parts of me that I haven’t been aware of, or been able to explore before.

I feel excited about these new parts of me, even though I cannot yet access them – it’s as if I’m only allowed to look at them, but not to touch them as yet. What new abilities will they hold? Where will they take me? What higher knowledge will they allow me to access? Can the Joy I feel now get any deeper? Can I reach higher than I have so far? I hear gentle laughter, and I’m being surrounded with infinite Love. I feel like a child, hugged close in the warm, loving embrace of a parent who’s telling me to be patient. “It won’t be long now darling”, I hear. I feel so immensely grateful to be here, living this life, at this time, it’s hard to express. There is SO MUCH LOVE in the Light for all of us, I sometimes feel as if I’ll burst with it. As if I’ll explode if I take in any more, and yet I can’t – and don’t want to – stop absorbing more. My heart chakra keeps expanding with it, no matter how much of it I direct down into Gaia or out across Her surface. It’s as if I can feel myself growing, expanding all the time.

It reminds me of an experience I had years ago when during meditation, I asked Spirit what it felt like to be a spirit. I suddenly found myself standing by an enormous fire, and Spirit asked me to step into it. I was frightened, but said that I would if Spirit held my hand, which It did. Together we walked into the flames and I felt myself being totally consumed. In the end, all that was left of me was a speck of dust – a spark – which floated up out of the fire. All of me was contained in that spark, yet I was everywhere and everything – I was ALL! The expansion of consciousness was infinite, yet physically I was nothing. I was a spark of infinite Love, Wisdom and Power. Sadly, I couldn’t sustain that state of absolute BLISS very long – spirits don’t need to breathe – and I came out of my meditation gasping for air. It was one of the most wonderful experiences I’ve ever had.

To think that that is the state we will all experience when we reach 5D – whilst in the body(!) – and that we’ll be able to sustain that feeling of absolute BLISS forever, is way beyond what my mind can encompass, but I hope I’ve given you some idea what we’re likely to be heading for/into. I can feel the excitement of it already – we’re close!

Inner Peace and Serenity

For weeks now, I’ve felt as if not all of me is here – as if my consciousness isn’t completely with my body. It’s as if a part of me is…..well, somewhere else, in a place where I feel so completely happy, that I don’t want to come back from there. I feel a deep inner peace and serenity that almost makes me feel guilty – almost – when I know so many people are going through serious upsets and upheavals that are turning their lives upside down. I do feel for them and I’m so grateful that my spiritual journey started years ago, which has allowed me to be who and where I am today.

It is difficult to try to describe what exactly it is that I am feeling, as getting to here has been such a subtle and gradual process, that it seems to have almost crept up on me. I have been trying to figure out when it actually started, but so many things that have happened over the years are coming together now, that trying to pinpoint the ‘pieces of the puzzle’, once you’ve managed to create a picture with them, isn’t as easy as it seems, because as we make progress, we integrate the new reality we experience into our lives. It becomes our Truth and a part of us, something we identify with. The bigger the picture we manage to put together, the more insights it gives us, which we also integrate as our Truth – we actually create our future with these Truths.

Take for instance my love for and connection with the trees. Although I initially thought that this was a connection I made this year, because I can see their auras and can communicate with them now, it goes back much further than that. I now know that this is a connection that stems from one of my earliest lives here on Earth and that I have always had a strong connection with them. The trees have been an important part of many of my life times and all through this life, I have worked with and been connected to them. The only ‘new’ thing I have recently (re)discovered is my ability to communicate clearly with them. I am now quite certain that I had this ability in many of my lives however.

Since I wrote BEing more than the physical body, when I started to fully open up whilst outside in nature, I have found a sense of Wholeness and Oneness that I’ve never experienced before – at least not in this life time. It’s as if I have connected with ALL on a deeper level, and part of me keeps that connection all the time, no matter what I do or where I go. I feel serene and surrounded by Love all the time. I float through the days as if I’m walking on air. I seem to be able to anticipate awkward situations and be able to head them off before they happen, and yet I don’t actually do anything – it’s as if my energy does it all for me. I can only think that this is the effect of working with the new high frequency energies. Considering how I feel now, and that these energies are being stepped up higher and higher in frequency, where they are likely to take us by the end of this year is somewhere way beyond my wildest imagination, but I can’t wait to get there!

Creating the Perfect Fit

Although I have spoken about going with the flow of the new energies quite a few times, and about just allowing things to happen, it’s not as easy as it seems. I still catch myself trying to ‘make sense’ of what I perceive spiritually, which not only causes me confusion, but it also causes preconceptions to take over, which are barriers to being able to work with the energy. Right now, I feel as if there’s a struggle going on inside of me, between what my heart knows must be done and what my mind is used to doing and wants to keep doing. It’s as if I’m walking around with a blindfold on –a blindfold that has been put on me by my own mind. Every time I sense something I feel is important, my mind interferes and blinds me to what it is and how I might be able to use it, through rationalising it and stopping me from opening up to it. It puts a different picture in the way – it overlays it with whatever it decides it must be, and stops me from seeing the true picture.

The new energy that’s arrived on the back of the Venus transit is so totally NEW that I feel the rational mind can’t cope with it, and therefore disguises it with something that it thinks it can relate it to, which isn’t what it actually is. When I asked for clarification about it this morning in meditation, I was told that every single part of us is going through a death and rebirth, but not all at once. Each part of us will experience this when it’s ready. This was explained to me as a transition, which is a process, something we have to ‘grow into’.  Like a caterpillar, we need to ‘grow into’ the death of who we were – the pupae stage – and do our transforming inside, before we can re-emerge as the butterfly, which we then will also need to grow into, by stretching, drying and fluttering our wings before we can truly learn to fly.

We need to learn to give our minds a back seat and allow the heart to take us where it wants to. We need to surrender the mind to the power of the heart and start living from our soul. Although we may feel we have already made a connection with our soul, we haven’t been able to fully understand or encompass up until now what our soul is capable of or even what it truly is. There are so many aspects to our soul and the way that it fits or slots perfectly into ALL that we as yet have no understanding of. The connections are being made right now, but it will take a while before we can access this information and learn about these connections. Our individuality is far more important than we realise. Each individual is like a diamond, shaped exactly right, to perfectly fit into the WHOLE, without leaving any gaps, and without any forcing or scraping when returned to its rightful place. The process we’re going through right now will eventually enable us to be just that – the perfect fit. It’s not that we’re not perfect already, but the new energies will help us become more aware, more focused and more able – a more refined diamond – and capable of using our abilities more fully than ever before. In an evolving WHOLE, every facet needs to become more evolved and refined before the process can be completed.

LOVE is……

It seems to me that the whole world is looking for love – there are numerous dating sites on the net, ‘heart-line’ ads in magazines and in the papers, not to mention the adverts on TV. We’re all made to feel that we’re not complete without a love partner. However, although it may sound strange to those who cannot imagine life without a partner, some of us are very happy without a partner and don’t feel that we’re incomplete, or lacking at all.

Over the years, the search for Self has changed me and my outlook on life so completely, that I can and will no longer take second best – I can’t and won’t have a relationship which is a compromise. I’ve had my share of relationships and had my heart broken like most people, but the love I’ve found with partners has never been able to weigh up against the Love I’ve found in the Light. To me, what has been called love here in 3D cannot compare to Love. This Love guides, comforts, fulfils, sustains and completes me. So how could I possibly feel that love is lacking in my life? How could I feel incomplete? If anything, this Love has completed and enriched me, by helping me to find an endless reservoir of love in my heart – a love that gives me great joy to share with everyone and everything.

The Love of the Light is unconditional, something I haven’t yet found in a partner. In my experience so far, unconditional Love is rarely felt, understood or returned by people in relationships. Unconditional Love asks for nothing in return, but it won’t allow abuse either. This is because the first thing it teaches you is to love and value yourself. Until you unconditionally love and value yourself, you cannot unconditionally love another. There is only one human example of unconditional love that I can think of, which is the love a mother feels for her children. Mother Earth loves humanity unconditionally as well – She will do everything in Her power to Love, feed, comfort and support Her children no matter what they do, or how they hurt Her. I realise that there are some who have never known this kind of love from their mothers, which is very sad. However, the harsh programming we have been subjected to all of our lives has taken much more of our humanity away from us than we currently realise and we have a lot more healing to do.

All the pain we have experienced in our lives will be healed by the Unconditional Love in the Light. We do however have to do our share by opening up to feeling the pain and allowing the Light of Love in for it to heal us. This year, we will all experience the Light of Love, as this is what the increase in vibration is all about – the higher the vibration, the more Light will enter the Earth and our bodies/beings, and the more Light will stay in our energy bodies. We will literally become ‘enlightened’ Beings. The Light will manifest as Love in our hearts – a Love so Unconditional that nothing can compare!

Touched by Love

I searched, but couldn’t find

that feeling

they said it was here, but they were wrong

I yearned for it, never knowing

exactly

what it was, or how it would feel

I thought I touched on it, once or twice

but they were

only drops, when I wanted oceans

I reached across the planes

and dimensions

for this feeling I needed so much

And when I finally found it, I cried

with happiness

and then sorrow, because then, I knew

That such a feeling of pure love, pure joy

pure ecstasy

could never be contained in this dimension

For even now, I’ve not even begun

to describe

just how much LOVE touched me!

                                                                 Gabrielle

Becoming a Sovereign Being

 Since writing my last article, I have felt like I’m floating on air, constantly expanding. It’s difficult to define exactly what I’m expanding into, as the Light that surrounds me stops me from seeing much else. So I can only say that I perceive what I’m expanding into. I have a sense of infinite space, of being ‘on a different plane’, of ‘being out of time’ and of Love so deep and all encompassing, that there are no words for it. It may sound strange, but I feel I’m fully expanding into ME. I have a feeling of being so vibrantly alive, and that everything  and everyone around me is so vibrantly alive, that I can sense every heartbeat, every thought and movement of anyone and everything that surrounds me. I feel as if I’m being hugged from all sides. The only drawback has been my physical body, which has been full of aches and pains, adjusting to my spiritual vibration. I’m so grateful that it’s been a holiday weekend, because I’ve felt so ‘spaced out’ for days now that I wouldn’t have been able to cope with work.

My meditations have been…..well, blinding is the only word I can think of to describe them. I have been so blinded by the Light that it has been difficult to see much at all. I’ve had a sense of travelling great distances and yet not going anywhere. Many times there was a sense of recognition, yet no memory of what it was I recognised, apart from knowing that it was mine – my own experiences, most probably from other lives I’ve lived, or things other parts of me have experienced in different dimensions or on different planes. I presume what happened, was that by owning and accepting these experiences as my own, I was able to let them go, and there was no need to relive them consciously.

Yesterday, I woke up feeling quite low, and wondered why, so I thought I’d ask in meditation. I didn’t have to ask however because as soon as I connected with the Light I was introduced to new guides. I had obviously felt the lack of my last guides, which would normally make me feel low for a day or so. I don’t normally work with guides, because although I acknowledge them and I’m grateful for the help they give me, I feel the real work is up to me. I want to have a strong connection with Spirit/the Light myself and don’t want to have to go through others to get my answers. I know this will probably upset some people who have always worked with guides, but it’s always worked well for me this way. When I’m fully in touch with my divinity, and there is so much Light inside of me, why would I look to others to find answers? It all boils down to standing in your power – owning your power.

One of the main ways in which the multidimensional DNA activation I went through has affected me so far, is that I feel empowered. In 3D, we were always taught to look to others for answers, to look to others for help, to look to others for permission. When you realise – and I mean KNOW – that you are a Being of Light and a part of the Divine, and that therefore you are a powerful Being, you don’t need anyone else’s answers or help to stand in your own power. And permission…..what’s that? When you’re a sovereign Being, you certainly don’t need anyone’s permission. The only thing you need to be certain of is your own motives. As sovereign Beings, fully connected with the Divine, we come from the heart at all times – we work, speak and do everything from Love, NOT from ego. Once we KNOW that we are sovereign Beings, we also KNOW that the Love in our hearts will guide us all the way. How could we possibly go/do wrong when we come from Love?  

Different Perceptions

I was about six years old when, whilst watching television, I suddenly wondered whether others saw the exact same pictures as I did. I don’t know what made me question this, or think such deep thoughts at such an early age, or even why I still vividly remember having them. I asked my sister whether she saw what I saw, and she looked at me as if I’d gone loopy and said that of course she did. I asked her how she could be so sure, and she proceeded to give me a running commentary of the program we were watching, to prove to me that we did see the same things. Although this proved the point, for some reason I wasn’t totally convinced. I just had a feeling that there was more to it than that, but I couldn’t explain why. Somehow, I must have realised that although we were seeing the same pictures, we most probably perceived what we saw in very different ways. Of course, as a six year old child, I couldn’t possibly have put this into words, but somehow I recognised that there was a difference between seeing with our eyes and ‘seeing’ as in perceiving. It was probably the first time I ever thought about it, possibly helped along by the fact that this sister and I never agreed on anything when we were young, but different perceptions have fascinated me ever since.

Why do we perceive everything from our own personal point of view? I think the answer is right there, in the question: ‘point of view’. We all look at things from a different ‘angle’. If we’re physically looking at something, what one sees is often different from what the other sees, depending on their physical perspective whilst looking at the same object or situation. Apart from that, as we all have different experiences in life, we view everything through the ‘lens’ of our own experience. A deeply religious person for instance, will find it very difficult to understand how it is possible that others do not believe what they believe, because for them their belief is absolute truth. The point I’m trying to make, is that we are all different, with our own personal experiences and perceptions – our own personal truth – which colour the way we see others. In many of us, these experiences and perceptions have become preconceptions and prejudices, mindsets which have become serious barriers to accepting others altogether. Unless we recognise and break through these barriers and learn to open our minds and hearts to accept and allow for the fact that not one of us has the exact same point of view as another, we will never be able to accept others as they are, and we will never be able to come together as ONE.

These different perceptions however are only in our minds, not in our hearts. In our hearts, we are all the same. When we approach others from the Love in our hearts, it becomes very easy to accept them exactly the way they are, with all their differences. The heart recognises everyone as just another part of ALL, another facet of the Source or Creator, another part of the same Being, and sees no differences. It has no preconceptions or prejudices at all, because the heart is connected to the divine, the pure Love of the Creator. The mind is where these barriers are – barriers that have stopped us from coming together for far too long. It therefore becomes essential to break through these barriers and open the mind to the Love in the heart, and to allow the heart to rule.

As we are being exposed to energetic frequencies that will get increasingly higher as this year progresses, we will have to learn to go with the flow and open up more and more in order to cope with many new situations that we will never have experienced before. Some of those situations will put us in a position where we have to come together in order to achieve our goals, or perhaps even to survive. If at that point we are not able to accept others exactly as they are, the chasm of separation we have created in our minds may well seem too hard to bridge. And yet, the people we never thought would offer help are often the first to do so, proving just how wrong our preconceptions can be.

I believe that this year will be a great equaliser, which will take us out of the separation mindset we have had for so long. This may be very difficult for some who have identified with this mindset their whole lives and fight the changes tooth and nail. When there is a lot of drama in someone’s life, you can be sure that they are fighting the changes. These are changes that cannot be fought however, and in the end these people will be faced with a choice of ‘sink or swim’. Although we may want to help them, especially when they are people we love, they are not likely to listen when they are focused on fighting. In situations like this the best we can do is to show/send them Love and be as calm as possible, in the hope that our energy will help them to calm down as well, so that they can take a step back and realise for themselves that fighting is not the answer. However, as mentioned before, everyone has their own truth, and their own perceptions of a situation, which we cannot expect to change. In the end they have free will – as do we all – and we will have to allow them to make their own choices, as hard as this may be. If they decide not to change, we will have to find enough Love in our hearts to allow them to go their own way. Although this will be very difficult to do, Love is the only thing that will help us to see it through. Remember that there will be no separation from anyone or anything once we reach the fifth dimension, as ALL will be united as ONE.

Transcendence

Although everyone is talking about Ascension, it strikes me that what we all need to do before we can ascend, is transcend the people we have been. This may sound strange, but unless we face ourselves with honesty and work on overcoming our fears, egos and programming, we cannot ascend at all. It’s not just about us personally of course, humanity as a whole has to transcend the greed, selfishness, violence and aggression that have ruled us for so long, and that’s not to mention the ego. As we cannot control the whole of humanity however, we need to start with ourselves.

I personally don’t subscribe to the New Age idea that ET’s will come down in their spaceships to rescue us and take us away from Earth, nor do I believe that Jesus will come back to rescue us. I don’t subscribe to any kind of rescue scenario, because the only ones who will be able to change things are US – WE are the only ones who can undo what WE have done to ourselves, eachother and the Earth. The whole rescue idea is just another way of refusing to take responsibility for our own lives and giving away our power, something which those who would control us would be all too happy about. Well, I’ve had to work long and hard to find my power, and I’m not about to give it away again.

Taking responsibility for their own lives is something many people have a lot of problems with, which is why I believe so many people prefer to follow others rather than think for themselves. Following what others say is of course easier and when things go wrong, you can always blame those you followed for messing things up. But why would anyone want to put their life in someone else’s hands at the risk that it might be messed up? Do they not value their lives, or is it a symptom of the apathy that has had a hold on humanity for so long? Even though we have all been programmed to follow since we were small, we can overcome – transcend – this programming and regain our personal sovereignty and power.

In order to find our own power, it speaks for itself that we need to start searching inside, as we won’t find it outside of ourselves. It takes time to find our power, and it won’t be as easy to find as you may think, as it is hidden behind many barriers that need to be broken through, which show themselves in the form of fears, ego and experiences that have controlled our lives up until now, as well as society’s programming, which we have all been subjected to since childhood. It is a gradual process of self-empowerment, which makes us aware of who we really are – by clearing out and overcoming the fears and debris we have collected all through our lives. Eventually, this process leads us to the realisation that we are SO much more than we were always led to believe, when we connect with our own divinity – that facet of us that is part of Spirit/God. We are eternal and infinitely powerful Beings of Light.

Even though I realise that many of my regular readers are well aware of this, I also know that there are many people out there who are just waking up to the fact that they want to change their lives and empower themselves, but who may not know where to look or how to begin this process of change. It is with those people in mind that I posted ‘The Search for Self’ a few days ago, and this article is also written for them.

The Search for Self

I sometimes wonder how many of us are aware of who we are – I mean really know who we are. How many of us are aware that we are a part of the divine? How can we know who we are when we can’t see more than our 3D physical bodies? We can watch videos or read books and articles that tell us that we are more than what we see, but just because someone tells us that, doesn’t mean that it’s true. Lately there have been so many things which we were told were true, that have turned out to be lies.  Even much of what we‘ve been taught about our human history seems to be purely the invention of those who sought to control us. The Bible for instance, a book that so many people swear is the truth, has been re-written several times to suit the ‘powers that were’ at the time. And yet, even though this is a proven fact, there are hundreds of thousands of people who still tell themselves that the Bible is ‘the word of God’ and try to convince everyone else of this as well. Religion is big business and one of the most successful control systems ever.

So how do we find the real being inside and connect with our divinity? Well, it’s obviously not a puzzle that can be solved by religion, as that makes you look outside of yourself all the time. According to religion, God is outside of you and not inside of you. You won’t find out who you are by reading books or articles, or by watching videos about spirituality either. Even going to spiritual workshops or meditation classes won’t do it for you, but they can provide you with the tools to work with. They can also be helpful by guiding you in the right direction, but they won’t give you the answer to who you are. How could someone else possibly know who you are? They can’t go inside of you and find the answers for you – only you can do that. The only way you will find out who you really are is by using the tools they teach you – like meditation – to go inside of yourself and search for answers. Even then the answers won’t be found as easily as you may think, and they certainly won’t come in any way that you might expect. Expectations are barriers in the search for Self, as they are restrictions that the mind sets in an attempt at control.

What we’re trying to find is an awareness of what goes on beyond the conscious mind, because the conscious mind is all we know at this stage, and it will only tell us what it’s always told us. So we need to go beyond the mind’s control, because the mind wants to keep us as we’ve always been because it’s safe. Safe doesn’t mean free however. If we always stay in the house we’d be safe, but also confined. So it’s important to explore inside of us with an open mind and allow whatever comes up to be whatever it is and show itself in any shape or form. What we’re trying to do is give the subconscious a chance to show us what the conscious mind doesn’t want us to know. The conscious mind is like a filter that stops many things from coming to the surface for many different reasons. These reasons could be anything from deep seated fears to society’s programming. As we’ve always been taught to think only rationally, our minds keep everything that doesn’t fit inside the framework of rationality in the subconscious. Once we start to lift the lid of this ‘Pandora’s box’ however, we find a reality that’s very different from the one we’ve always known.

(see my Balance Meditations  on the right for help with this)

The subconscious will show us many things that we’ve hidden from ourselves, like fears that we’ve lived with for many years, or traumatic experiences that were hidden so deep, that we sometimes don’t even remember them. This may not sound like a very attractive prospect, but these experiences have caused us to react in less than ideal ways, and have been barriers to happiness and freedom. Sometimes they have even caused us physical or mental health problems. By allowing them to surface in meditation and accepting them as they are, we can view them without emotional attachment, embrace them with love and let them go. Doing this not only helps us to connect with our feelings –our heart – and so find a much needed inner balance, but also helps us to live happier and healthier lives, and gives us a feeling of confidence that many people lack. It helps us to see ourselves in a very different light and makes us realise that we are not the helpless beings that we thought we were. The more we find and bring up from our subconscious mind into consciousness this way, the more freedom we find – first of all there’s emotional freedom, which leads to freedom of thought, which eventually leads to more freedom in our physical lives. The more we start living from the truth that we find in our hearts, the more we empower ourselves.

Obviously, this process of embracing our shadow – or subconscious selves – takes courage, as we have to be completely honest with ourselves. This honesty is what is needed to connect with our inner divinity, as the search for Self naturally becomes a search for Soul or Spirit. As long as we search for Truth with an open heart, we will automatically connect with our own inner spirit or divinity, and realise that we are a small piece of ALL/Source/Light/Spirit/God or whatever you wish to call the Highest Power. In my own experience, it didn’t take very long before I became aware of a kind of guidance, which eventually led me to finding Spirit inside of me. From that moment on, with Spirit’s guidance, I found many wonderful abilities inside, and had the most amazing experiences. For those people who have not yet experienced this connection, don’t give up, and don’t doubt yourself  – you will find it. We are powerful Beings of Light, and the Light will shine through eventually.

Although you may wonder how you know that you have connected with your divinity, the feelings of Love, happiness and joy that you experience when you do will leave you in no doubt at all of the reality and Truth you have found.

You can read my own experiences in my book: http://themysteryofself.wordpress.com/